Friendship and the pastor’s wife: In friendship, resist the discomfort of receiving

By Christine Hoover

On my first Sunday as a pastor’s wife, a college girl approached me with a question I had no answer for, and I later berated myself for stumbling and bumbling my way through a response. In my immaturity and inexperience, I believed wholeheartedly that to be a wise woman (and a good pastor’s wife) was to have all the answers, know how to respond appropriately in every situation, but mostly it was to be a faithful need-meeter at every turn. My own weaknesses and needs were to remain hidden, never disclosed to others. As a result, starting that day and continuing for the first seven years of my ministry life and marriage, I lacked friends.

Finally, tired of feeling isolated and alone, I decided that, in order to have good friends, it was imperative that I set aside once and for all the (laughable) notion that I could get by always giving but never receiving. In fact, I attribute much of the friendship struggles I experienced in my twenties to my inability or refusal to be helped. I kept myself firmly in the position of giver and need-meeter because receiving required humility and vulnerability that, frankly, I didn’t have.

Therein lies the inherent risk. Asking for help from another woman puts us in a vulnerable spot, one where it’s quite possible that we’ll be misunderstood or that she’ll respond in a truly unhelpful way or we’ll be judged spiritually inferior. But I’ve found the reward far outweighs the risk because, aside from intentional vulnerability, relying on the help of friends is one of the greatest catalysts for deepening friendship.

It is in fact an imperative of Scripture that we bear one another’s burdens” (Galatians 6:2). “One another” implies a mutuality of both giving and receiving. Paul rebukes those who want to do all of the giving but none of the receiving: “For if anyone thinks he is something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself” (Galatians 6:3). He doesn’t mean we’re nothing in the sense that we’re not worthy of receiving; he means we are spiritually dependent upon God and the ministry of God through others. We grow through the help of others.

When you feel unworthy to receive
I have a friend who holds her cards close to her chest. If something is going on with her, not a soul knows about it. After a few times of finding out after the fact that she had encountered some bumps in the road and had not asked me for physical help or even just prayer, I began to question whether she really considered me her friend. I feel pretty certain that she did, but her lack of vulnerability and dependence on me have made it difficult for us to deepen our friendship. The times she has let me in and let me serve her in some way, I’ve been met with profuse apology, as if it’s a burden or a bother. I wish I could get across to her that I love her, and that it’s my joy and honor to serve her. I wish I could tell her that it’s a blessing to me to be invited into the private and personal areas of her life. I want to help her when she needs it. It’s how I can fulfill the command to “bear one another’s burdens,” and I don’t want to be denied that opportunity, especially with someone I consider a friend.

I see my old self in her, the self who felt unworthy and, honestly, unwilling to receive from others. I noticed over time in my own life that other women only tried to push through that prideful wall for so long. Because I didn’t ask for help from others, because I was only comfortable being a giver, I came across as plastic, as if I had it all together and didn’t need anything. Now I see what they saw, and I know they knew I either wasn’t being real about my life or I wasn’t a person they could be real with. They likely assumed I was not someone who could relate to any neediness they might have, so my friendships were unable to deepen.

I’m not sure that discomfort in receiving ever truly goes away for any of us, but it’s something we’re going to have to work through if we want to have good friends. Because friendship is about mutuality. I want to love my friends by giving to them, and I have to believe they feel the same way. And you know what? I don’t want any of my friends to take away my opportunity to bless and serve and give to them. Why would I take away their opportunity to do the same for me? I certainly don’t want to negate what they do give by profusely apologizing or trying to repay them or evaluating what they’ve done. That’s not friendship. That’s business or charity or something else entirely, something lacking Holy Spirit-infused intimacy.

Outside help for inside struggles
I’m far past the discomfort of asking for help from my friends regarding my physical needs, but I’m still learning to move past the discomfort of asking for help with my emotional and spiritual needs. Just recently, in fact, God initiated a work in my life that began with His discipline. As I sorted through what He was trying to say to me, I found too much fog and confusion to think clearly on my own. I needed outside help, so I asked for my closest friends to enter in. This, too, is a biblical request, as Paul says, “if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness” (Galatians 6:1), and James says “Confess your sins to one another and pray for one another” (James 5:16).

And so I asked for their prayers. I told them I wasn’t doing well. I explained I wasn’t even sure what was going on with me, but I felt intense spiritual oppression. I told them what the Lord had convicted me of and how, after that, I’d felt all tangled up in my mind. I told them I felt despair and how all I knew to do was to wait on the Lord and ask people to pray for me.

My friends came running. They offered their time, listening ears, biblical truth, words of encouragement, prayers and, in all these things, important space for me to not be OK until I really was. In many of my conversations with them, I was a blubbering mess, but they patiently helped me sort through my thoughts and emotions until I came to somewhat of a conclusion as to what the Lord was doing.

Frankly, it was uncomfortable for me to invite them into my mess. It was uncomfortable for me to not be OK in full view of other women. It was uncomfortable revealing my deepest thoughts, many of them sinful. But in intentional receiving from godly women, there is great benefit and reward, and I was just such a beneficiary. The benefits? Wise counsel and the ministry of the Body. The rewards? Deepening friendship and a profound commitment to go and do likewise for others.

I’m not saying that we should be constantly needy and clingy and expect everyone to come running all the time. Biblical dependence and reliance on others in friendship is the kind that, after we’ve received them, they cause us to respond with gratitude to God that He would give us help through others. In the end, this is a reliance on the Lord, a trust that He will use His church to minister to us in the way He ordains.

We are to be those ministers, yes, but we’re also to position ourselves as humble receivers.

And positioning usually means asking.


Published June 1, 2017

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Christine Hoover

Christine Hoover is a pastor’s wife, mom to three energetic boys, and the author of The Church Planting Wife: Help and Hope for Her Heart. She enjoys encouraging ministry wives and helping women apply the gift of God’s grace to their daily lives. Christine’s work has been featured on Desiring God, The Gospel Coalition, Christianity Today, Pastors.com, Flourish, and In(courage). She offers fresh doses of biblical truth and grace on her blog, www.GraceCoversMe.com.