When uncertainty and loneliness abounds

By Kathy Ferguson Litton

I once read a tweet by Beth Moore that said: “Sometimes we listen best when we cannot see.” Her words reminded me of life giving truth from my early season of widowhood and grief in a small devotion by Elisabeth Elliot. Her words literally lit the pathway of my heart, my faith, and my steps. My entire life felt like a moonless sea. And yet, God was enough. If your seas are moonless, you will find hope here:

“Some of you are perhaps feeling that you are voyaging just now on a moonless sea. Uncertainty surrounds you. There seem to be no signs to follow. Perhaps you feel about to be engulfed by loneliness. There is no one to whom you can speak of your need.

“Amy Carmichael wrote of such a feeling when, as a missionary of 26, she had to leave Japan because of poor health, then travel to China for recuperation, but then realized God was telling her to go to Ceylon. (All this preceded her going to India, where she stayed for 53 years.)

“I have on my desk her original handwritten letter of August 25, 1894, as she was en route to Colombo.

“She wrote: ‘All along, let us remember, we are not asked to understand, but simply to obey…. On July 28, Saturday, I sailed. We had to come on board on Friday night, and just as the tender (a small boat) where were the dear friends who had come to say goodbye was moving off, and the chill of loneliness shivered through me, like a warm love-clasp came the long-loved lines — “And only Heaven is better than to walk with Christ at midnight, over moonless seas.” I couldn’t feel frightened then. Praise Him for the moonless seas — all the better the opportunity for proving Him to be indeed the El Shaddai, “the God who is Enough.”‘ 

“Let me add my own word of witness to hers and to that of the tens of thousands who have learned that He is indeed enough. He is not all we would ask for (if we were honest), but it is precisely when we do not have what we would ask for, and only then, that we can clearly perceive His all-sufficiency. It is when the sea is moonless that the Lord has become my Light.”

Thank you Elisabeth Elliot. You have allowed me to dip constantly into your journey via your writing. I have returned often to Moonless Trust to find hope and truth.

I hope others will glean from you today.

Published February 22, 2018

Kathy Ferguson Litton

Kathy lives in Mobile, Alabama, with her husband Ed, pastor of Redemption Church. Both lost former spouses in car accidents, and God uniquely gave them new love and life together in 2009. Kathy enjoyed 26 years of life and ministry alongside Rick Ferguson. She has three children and ten grandchildren. Presently she serves as Director of Planting Spouse Development.